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I can't even express my joy that you are writing SPN. So much JOY!

He didn't notice it was there until about thirty miles further on, when he realized his own hand was resting on top of Sam's, and he was singing Come Sail Away under his breath.

\o/ You win! *g*

It's probably a mark of how ridiculously impressionable I am that I hadn't thought about a possible sad interpretation of Bad Blood until I read that comment, but after I did I was convinced. Then of course I was all blah about it, until you re-persuaded me that it was all good with the playful, semi-hidden schmoop. :D!

I love Sam's complete confidence in Dean's inability to keep up his denial. Adorable, and awesome.

Yeah, Sam owns your ass now Dean. I love that. And as much denial as Dean's in, he's really not fighting it, is he? Great job.

Dawww, super cute!

I enjoyed this. :)

Oh, hey, interesting. I think, actually, kittygoslingp articulated something I had been feeling a little too, but I just didn't know what it was -- so I'm really glad you wrote this companion piece. I'd had something of the same feeling re: Shambala, also, in that I saw all of Dean's actions being really resistant, and I wanted to believe he wanted it as much as Sam did, but I just wasn't 100% sure. Anyway, fantastic fic as always. ♥___♥

I confess there is something I love about resistant Dean and confident Sam steamrolling him -- it is just kind of a ridiculous amount of fun to make Dean flail and protest. *g* And in this universe, I think he *doesn't* want it as much as Sam does, in the sense that Dean would be perfectly content with the combination of Sam happily by his side forever and casual sex with friendly and willing women along the road -- that Dean really doesn't mind getting his intimacy and his sex in different places. Or at least, he thinks he doesn't mind until he starts getting them in the same place. *g*

I'm confused and/or sad about the lack of horse!porn in this one.

*snickers*

SO DAMN CUTE. And thank you for making Dean happy too :)

Oh thank you!

I found Bad Blood to be hot and funny but also disturbing (not just for the horses! *g*) - mostly for the reasons kittygoslingp explained better than I could. I admit to being a wuss who likes a happy ending, but I think I was really missing the consequences from Bad Blood (good or bad). Thanks for supplying the hopeful ending.

Also "Sucks to be you," Sam said serenely. Heee!

Great story and, as much as I enjoyed the complicated, ambivalent feelings you provoked in me with Bad Blood, I have to confess that I love this coda and the wholly convincing, matter of fact way Dean is just having to get along and deal with this whole new bonus facet to an already great relationship with his brother.

Sam's reaction to Dean and the girl in the bar was just hilarious - no jealousy, no hurt feelings or sulkiness, just a completely matter of fact refusal to grant permission and an unspoken assumption by both of them that it was in his power to do so (because, after all, what was Dean really doing by gesturing to the girl but testing boundaries, asking for permission and, in so doing, unconsciously, giving Sam the right to withhold it), which I think goes to what you were saying about Dean actually wanting those non-transient pleasures that he doesn’t have much faith in (and, perhaps, given the faith he has in Sam, the hope that maybe they can be his after all).

(Hugging to my chest a small, smug satisfaction that I might in any way have encouraged this fabulous companion piece.)

Your comment totally sparked this, so thank you! And yes, that's exactly it with the girl -- Dean making his feeble bid for the way things were and getting shot down. *g* (Also, re: Moderation Itself, I think I have re-read that story at least twelve times since it was posted, man. *fans self*)

"You want it, you can get it at home," Sam said, and kicked his leg up so he was blocking the way out of Dean's side of the booth.

I find that both completely hilarious and quite in character--despite his own hang-ups about family, Sam has always been certain of his place in Dean's life. Resistant Dean will never not be funny (and emphasizing how strong the taboo against incest realistically is), but this ending makes me quite happy.

You totally had me smiling ear to ear.

If you haven’t already, I strongly recommend you take a look at Moderation itself by sevenfists
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Ah, I lovelovelove Aggressive!Sam. You are my hero! (as always {g})

Dazed and amazed now, and Sam--just settling in, smug as a cat with all the cream.

Heh. Poor Dean! :-D Wonderful story, though dang, any followup to Bad Blood is a tall order...

I've been remiss in sending you feedback about your SPN stories, but I've been loving them all. This is one of my favourite Dean characterizations - Dean gives Sam what he needs, always, first and foremost. Just Awesome.

Yes! Yes! YES! I love this Dean. I do. I have an unholy love for Sam taking over and Dean freaked but eventually going along with it because what are ya gonna do?

Actually, I have really *strong* feelings about this. One of my problems with incest fic in general is, well, not to get gory, but I kinda have to see the results of abuse-of-power daily and there is never a universe where I don't see Dean as the caregiver, the person in power pre-Sam running off to Stanford. And it just...it carries over and if Dean becomes the aggressor (at least right now) it feels like a betrayal; like he is not taking the very best care of Sam that he can and that then feels out of character. I can see how, with time, as equal partners, and especially if I go really dark with the YED stuff and destiny and all that, how I could go for Dean turning it all on its head and pushing the boundaries, but not in their current state? Does that make any sense?

It's like - if Sam puts the moves on Dean and won't take no for an answer (because Sam has NEVER had to accept no as the final answer from Dean be it Lucky Charms or this) it is really hot. If Dean puts the same moves on Sam it becomes "No, Dean with the bad-touching!"

That being said I ADORE this and I think you should just make it a series already because I think it is.

Ha! Persistence leads to sex! Very cool how chill they both were through the whole thing, because these boys just are, even when it comes to weird shit that would freak everyone else out. Well, everyone but fangirls.
Also, I'm mainlining SPN right now, and now that you mention it, Dean TOTALLY DOES always take the bed by the door. Therefore, everything else in the story must be true too, right?

you. are my favourite fic writer. :) I love stories where Sam and Dean just arent naturally all over eachother...where theres some sort of inner conflict for one of them...you always write them so well :)

I love Sam as the arbiter of the peculiar Winchester standards of morality (when your brother loves you, you are not allowed to sneak off for nooky with bar girls), and Dean's drag-his-feet, nervous virgin acceptance of his courtship. The first story didn't feel that sad to me because I unthinkingly accept the divergence from true canon Dean, who might indeed be irrevocably freaked; this story goes it one better, it gives me the warm fuzzies, sweet cookies for my tea, all those positive feelings. And Dean's Dork Destiny is too good to let go; how about adding it as a subtitle, as used to be so common with Victorian novels?

Adorable :)

I've read all of your SPN fic so far, but never actually got round to letting you know how much I enjoyed it. So here.

I like your Sam, his quiet stubborness. He's still water running deep. And I like your Dean who's just so...Dean. You nailed him so completely. And I love the way you write "male": so matter-of-fact and crude and gritty, real.

Really nice job, lady. :)

I love how Sam has totally decided for both of them how things are going to happen now, and how Dean just gives in. I think we all know who is whose bitch XD

Seriously, I love this.